Sunday, April 24, 2005
i've nvr done this before...writing a blog. lol... basically todae isn't a very gd day. first of all, i had nothing to do to begin with then my only plan for the day got cancelled. i was just lying on my bed relaxing and thinking through some stuff while dozing off. i was thinking bout the degenerating friendship between my good friend, aaron and i...and also how boring this holiday is becoming. i hav nvr had the chance to feel angry with someone over almost evrything he or she does...until now. i hav a brief idea why i'm always getting angry with aaron. THE THING IS THE ANGER IS ONE SIDED!!! HE NEVER RECIPROCATES, HE NEVER GETS ANGRY WITH ME IN RETURN!!! deep down inside i think...it's becoz of cheryl. Something that happened a long long time ago. I'm just trying to get rid of the knot inside me, so that i can finalli stop feeling what i am feeling towards aaron. this is because, its very unfair to him...seriously i can feel how important he is to me as a friend and as a confidant, thats y im feeling this total lost feeling now. In my heart he has gradually become my best friend, tt's y there is this sadness and anger in me with myself, that i am feeling anger towards him...how can i treat someone who is so impt to me like this, its wrong man... i know myself...if its a person whom i hardly care about, i wouldnt even bother to tell him if he failed a major paper and i'm the onli one who noes....hahaa...just an analogy. haiz...i wonder, i wonder, i wonder how to solve this realli big problem....
posted @ 5:01 PM
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