Wednesday, May 18, 2005
*** WHY DO YOU EVEN BOTHER, MY OLD FRIEND***
Well, I just got back from Hapkido. I've got to admit, I'm shagged!!! I met up with Kenny and Joshua at Bukit Batok MRT station and we made our way to Ang Mo Kio. There we ate a plate of cockles manz, more commonly known as SI HUM!!! hahaha!!! After that we proceeded to the training gym and got ready for Hapkido. I felt like I would be the most dumb looking one there, as I watched Joshua and Kenny change into their Gi, but that changed when Master told one of the seniors, Ronny to pass me a Gi later on in the gym! Woah....lolx. I was so happy that both my brows raised upon seeing it...loLx.
We spent the time, doing drills such as blocking and striking and locking techniques. For those of you who aren't really interested, will say "as usual", but for me it's a thrill and interest to be learning this.
After training, Joshua, Kenny, Colin(senior) and I ate supper at the nearby Kopitiam and then proceeded to play a few rounds of pool at the nearby Snookerium. After that we all proceeded to the MRT and made our way home.
I plan to watch StarWars Episode 3 : Revenge of the Sith on Thursday, with Kenny, Kai Wah and WenTat. But before the movie on that day I'd be meeting up with Kenny to go get smthing which is required, as our Master has instructed.
Well, back to the events of today, I'm now online on MSN and I noticed something. Someone is still using a display picture of me, him and another guy. It starts me thinking, probably he just likes that picture because he looks good in it. Or probably, coz the other guy is his friend and looks good in the picture with him. Or he still cherishes the friendship between me and him. To my deepest meditation and deduction, I have come to the conclusion that it is probably one of the first two reasons. So why does he even bother, I would very much like him to change the display picture away to smthing else, but it's his account, he can do whatever he wants or likes with it.
Earlier today I was on the phone with Cheryl, and she was talking about the degrading friendship between me and Aaron and the degrading relationship between she and I. Evryone seems to think I am the oppressor in both situations. Do they not think and know that I have some heart left? Haiz... I too want to have a group of friends whom I can grow old with... I want to live life with this group of friends...Look back on events, years later, with this group of friends and laugh at the good times and the bad. To console myself a little, I already have a group of "grow old together" friends with me. And since things have degenerated to this extent between me and Aaron, I guess the only thing left to do is to preserve and maintain my relationship, care, love and concern for this group of friends.
To be honest, without Aaron appearing in my life I would nvr have gotten to noe this "grow old together" group of friends after that. And I would nvr have gotten through the days when I had arguments with Cheryl and problems elsewhere.
I Guess, some friends were nvr meant to last. It's not that they are bad friends, it's just that these certain group of "angels", enter ur life and are just there for a reason. You start to befriend this type of friend, you begin to hang out, you begin to love this friend like a sibling you nvr had, you regard this friend as ur best friend.... but after they have brought you through whatever ordeal you seem to be having at the moment, things happen. Arguments, disapprovals, differences and a whole lot of other things... they start to kick in and a gap is formed. Then this type of "angel" just leaves suddenly from your life, because, he or she has served his or her purpose of bringing you through the rain. To me.... that kind of friend is "a friend that you've outgrown". Outgrown not in a bad meaning, but in a way this friend has made u stronger before leaving you.
So if there is smthing I would grant a toast to you for, it's this... Thank You for raising a part of my life to happier times and making me a hell of a lot stronger. To you...my Old and gone Friend, our paths may never cross again or we might cross paths again, but not as friends in future. Who knows... We may even need to cross swords, figure of speech. But until that day, should it come or not. I will rmber you...whenever I look at the pair of Gold Framed Doves carrying a crystal each, which was a gift from you.
GEEZ!!! Look at the length of this post....i gotta go...loLx...
Update again soon...ciaoz!
posted @ 1:17 AM
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