Thursday, August 25, 2005
**** I always knew most ppl wear masks. ****
Yes i'm back again after yEt another long silence.
Well this post isnt going to be veri pretty. I just wanna say to my family that i dun need u to act as if you are interested or actualli give a damn about my martial arts. And i dun need you to come to "support" me during my demonstrations or future demonstrations, coz i dun want u there in the first place, dun cock me up while im on stage. From now on, dun ask me wads going on in training and if i look like i have bruises, do me a favor...dun try to act like u give a damn. I will in turn do u guys a big favor, i wun tell u guys bout it and whenever i formulate a new technique onli those who train wif me or get beaten up by me will noe... I've alreadi known from the start that you aren't realli keen on letting me learn martial arts, but i would deceive myself time and time again. I dun need u guys to go send mi off at the airport if I ever go to Korea for training. From now on all i need and want is a ride to and fro Bukit Batok and the training fees.
Well u guys r not totalli in the wrong, i have been wearing a mask as well, im not one bit interested in Squash or if Nicole succeeds or not in it. I tell her strategies to smarten her brain up so she can think on her own, not because I care whether she loses or wins titles. U guys say im a veri self centered person...yes i am... and i noe it. You guys nvr approved of mi in evrything in the first place not to mention doing anything . I practically have to beg u guys for evrything i ever realli wanted, joining NCC, learning martial arts, going to Pahang.
You all once told mi... "why in evry movie people like the main character or the good guys...you always must be opposite and admire the villian."
That's because evrything the villian does no matter wad is always wrong. Quite similar to me right? I'm not a bad guy... but most of the time, I'm forced to be...
And dad dares to tell me he loves Nicole more than me. Heh heh heh...i seriously dun care manz... its insignificant to me, all these bonds. I onli have one life...and im going to live it to e fullest. I wanted to gain immortality since a veri young age (fuck whoever thinks its childish), but its definitely not possible at present, so im gonna live it to the fullest from now on, my way.
People who r important to my heart already have their names etched in my mind and soul. And its full...so pls noone else try to squeeze their way in.
DAILY UPDATE!
Haha today while coming back from training Kenny almost lost his hp! Thank God, we made it back to ang mo kio station in time to see that it was still there!!!
Dammit i'm tired I guess I will stop writing here.
posted @ 11:15 PM
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