Tuesday, August 15, 2006
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There's no use of me writing anything here, or to be exact, there's no point in me writing anything anywhere. Since u wun be able to see it. But I just think its better for me to pour wat i hv out, didnt hv a blog before, now i do. so...dump it here lr... hmm... I shouldn't have watched Top Gun today, it was a stupid thing to do. Many ppl talk bout loss, but I think not all of them can seriously noe wat it feels like to stand at a window and regret someone lost.
Spoke to ur brother yesterday, i went to msg him online and chatted with him bout how he and ur famil was doing now and I felt that guilt and sadness coming back agaIn. I shln't hav argued with u then. Not many ppl around me now, noe that I knew someone like u. I shld hv gone to u when i heard u had a heart attack. I had things I wanted to say to u. I'm so sry... i'll nvr forget 14/08/01... i alwys feel terrible ard this period. i tot i could use my recent outing to pacify my sadness but i couldnt in e end. haha.
But i'd like u to noe from whereever u are now, i'm a better person for my family and friends now cOz of u... so good that i'm now always the person who gives in... Haha.........Ur parting frm here, made me make that decision.
We went through hell tgther but i nvr appreciated u back then. I was too caught up wif new things to give a damn bout u... U called me "da-ge" back then, hahah i rmber, it was realli childish of us. I'm just so happy ur family is doing fine, ur brother is now in JC.
I love u bro, i miss u.
posted @ 2:26 AM
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